"My soul is sorrowful even unto death."
"Father, if You are willing, remove this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done."
I can relate to the questioning God's plan. I can relate to desperately wanting the 'cup' (my impending cross) to be taken from me. I can relate to the call to claim this cross as mine - renouncing my own will and accepting the will of the Father.
"Keep watch and remain here with me."
I can relate to not wanting to carry this cross alone. I can relate to feeling disappointed that many people aren't there for me in the way I want or need them to be. I can relate to utter loneliness in the cross.
I can relate to that Jesus in Gethsemane. I get him. I know him. His pain and grief was consuming. It was bigger than mine - than ours.
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Today Gianna and I finished our special novena to St. Joseph....on Holy Thursday. On Iain's birthday.
Happy Birthday, my Love. Be at peace.