Me: "I need to know the EXACT time you're going to pull up into the driveway."
Him: "Uh-oh. Right at 4:30pm."Me: "Oh gosh. No way. I'll coming to meet you in the parking lot."
Him: "Is she being a pickle?"
Me: "I'm losing my marbles."
I changed her diaper, buckled her into her carseat, and started the 20 minute drive.
Her: "Hi Mommy!..... Hi Mommy!....... Mommy?"
Me: "Hi Gianna."
Her: "Mommy?........Mad."
Me: "Yes Gianna, Mommy was mad."
(I didn't lose my cool, but I did keep telling her, "Mommy's mad, Gianna.")
Iain calls to have me meet him at the gas station. We were both low on fuel.
I arrived and began pumping gas.
He arrived just behind me, filling his tank.
We met in between the two cars.
Eye contact was brief.
I think he kissed me.
All I remember saying is, "I'm outta here."
We switched cars.
I didn't even tell Gianna goodbye.
It was a difficult day.
Not horrible.
Moderately challenging.
The afternoon became increasingly frustrating.
For some reason or another, I wasn't coping well.
I guess I just needed a little breathing time.... a time out.
The ladies study circle meets on Tuesdays, thank heavens, but that was 3 hours away. What to do?
I just drove.
I went into town.
First I went here:
I picked up a new welcome mat and a few other piddly things.
Then I had a lovely, peaceful, quiet dinner here:
...and had the grilled chicken salad.
It was really good and I enjoyed eating in the car listening to music.
Not children's music ~ 80's music.
Aaah. That's more like it.
Then I headed here:
...I'm rarely disappointed there.
And finally at 7pm I made it to study circle to discuss a couple of chapters in this book:
Had a lovely visit with some of the ladies afterward.
Nice.
I got home and Tivo'd my way through tonight's
which only took about 15 minutes, because I fast forward the the commercials, poor performances and much of the ridiculous drival by the judges.
Crystal Bowersox was AMAZING.
Hubby was asleep before I came home. I missed him, but I'm feeling refreshed and much better.
Aaaaahhhh.
So much better.
It's amazing what a little Time Out for Mommy can do.
In the words of my darling daughter,
"Aw Beddah!"
(Translation: "All Better!")
Aw, Maria - thanks for being so transparent. I sometimes feel that I may be the only momma that ever reaches the end of my rope. It's good to take a breather now and then. Oh and I have the best compliment for you - I will try to email it to you later today!
ReplyDeleteMaria so funny- well funny is not the right word I guess... I was just wondering the other day if I was terrible for driving around alone and spending an excessive amount of time alone at Sonic and Target. Strangely refreshing it is true :)
ReplyDeleteMaria so funny- well funny is not the right word I guess... I was just wondering the other day if I was terrible for driving around alone and spending an excessive amount of time alone at Sonic and Target. Strangely refreshing it is true :)
ReplyDeleteOh no!! I hope today is going better. I have had a few of those challenging days since Ben, but I never had the guts to write about them in the past...I think I am getting over that. Keep your eyes open, 'cause next time I will let you know (and record it for Ben to see one day) how pitiful I can get. My escape is BooksAMillion:)
ReplyDeleteI love that your husband new exactly what you needed! That is so great.
ReplyDeleteSo I was talking with Kate and asking how you never seem to "lose your marbles" -all the sweet pics and words of love to your awesome daughter are so calm! YAY this is my favorite post to date!!! So I guess I am normal :-) Go Mr. Hubby of the year.
ReplyDeleteYou are an incredible Mommy!! I barely made it through a day without a melt down when Nate was home with me sick a couple weeks ago. You have the patience of a saint and the perfect sense of humor to go with it!! Love you big!! Nate's been asking for "Jonna"...maybe this weekend we can get together!
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Maria,
ReplyDeleteDon't you think we are too hard on ourselves sometime? I mean, think about it...spending the day with someone who has no idea of half the stuff you are talking about, wiping other people's hineys, answering "yes,dear, I can do that for you"(and not just to your child, but also to your husband) and spending endless hours at the kitchen sink (you'd think my hands would be soft by now). With that said, and many more things that happen, but I can't remember because being "Mommy" made my brain mush...small mommy meltdowns are expected and almost necessary for us to get "alone time." My favorite thing to do is Marshall's and of course Sonic. I think now after 3 kids, I'm addicted to Diet Dr. Pepper with Vanilla (and it's sad, but true, that Whitney can tell you exactly what I like) and I've "thirty-dollared" my budget to death at Marshall's. Oh well, my kids are still alive! peace, Carrie
I feel your pain! As sweet and easy as Camden is, it can still be tough some days. So glad to know you have these days, too!
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